I feel like I totally failed at Christmas this year for my kids. With the twins in the NICU, I had still wanted everything to be normal at home for Jay and Kage. I made sure to put decorations up inside the house right after Thanksgiving. I made sure to bring Elfie out this year, even though I didn’t want to add one more thing to do with everything going on. I failed at moving Elfie more often than not from pure exhaustion and forgetting, but thankfully my husband started taking over moving him. I made sure to watch a few Christmas movies with the boys. We didn’t get our letters wrote to Santa this year. We didn’t put lights up outside. We threw our old tree away last year and had planned on getting a real tree this year, but things happened and getting a real tree didn’t happen. Hubby wound up picking up a small tree almost two weeks before Christmas, but guess what, the boys didn’t even care that it was a small tree, they loved it in fact because they could easily decorate the whole thing and Jay had no problem putting the star on the top. {Our Christmas last year} We didn’t go Christmas shopping until last minute, but I did make sure gifts were wrapped and under the tree Christmas eve day. I didn’t hang their stockings until Christmas eve and I totally dropped the ball on getting Jax and Kade their first stockings. I spent part of Christmas at the hospital visiting Jax. We didn’t bake a cake for Jesus on Christmas like we’ve done every year and we didn’t making Christmas cookies. We did laugh, cuddle, play with new toys, and enjoyed having a quiet Christmas day at home instead of going anywhere like we usually do. Things were very different this year vs previous years, it impacted me more than the boys. I noticed they didn’t care about the little things that I did. I noticed they loved the decorations around the house, they loved our little tree, they loved every gift they got, and they were satisfied just being at home with us on Christmas day. They reminded me what Christmas was really about during such a hectic time in our lives. I do know though, that next year will be extra special because we will have our whole family at home next Christmas.
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