How is it that this summer passed so quickly? How is you are growing up so fast? I wish time would slow down, I wish I could stop time and just hold you forever. I love watching you grow though. It really is a bittersweet feeling, wanting you to stay little, but loving watching you become this independent big boy. I can’t believe you are in first grade. We woke up a little late Monday morning, but you were so excited to start getting ready. You ate your breakfast, took your shower, and got ready. We chatted about school and making new friends. When it was time to go, we walked hand in hand to your classroom and I didn’t want to let you go. I wanted to hold your small hand and just stay with you. You smiled at me though, let my hand go, and walked right to your seat. I was fighting back tears, but I knew you were going to be fine.
As a momma, it’s a hard line to walk. Watching you grow, wanting you to learn, letting you become independent, but wanting to hold your small hand forever because I know there will come a time when you don’t want me to hold your hand, a time when I don’t get to walk you in to school. I cherish these moments with you Jay. My heart is filled with so much love and joy for you that it takes my breath away. I am truly so blessed to be your momma. So blessed that God chose me, I couldn’t imagine life without you, I couldn’t imagine not watching you grow up. I might want you to stay little forever, I may want to hold your hand always, but I know I will hold your heart forever.
Your first day went so well. As soon as you spotted me when I picked you up after school, you were beaming! You climbed into the car and started chatting away. I was so happy to hear that you loved your teacher and that you had a wonderful first day of school. The second day went just as well and you even told me about the new friend you made. It warms my heart that you are having great days in school because I miss you like crazy when you are gone and I’m always worried/wondering how your day is going. I just wanted to say how much I love you and how proud of you I am.