I would have missed it

I saw this video on facebook that my mom shared and not even half way through it, I was fighting back tears. We are a social media generation, especially us bloggers who have to maintain that online presence. When though, are we going to realize we have taken social media too far? Not just bloggers, but this generation in general. I love social media. I love keeping up with my blog friends lives via Instagram or twitter. I love seeing a peek into their lives just like I love sharing little snippets of mine with them. Social media has made it easier for friends and family who don’t live close, to stay connected and that’s a huge blessing, but we have to be careful of how much time we spend holding a device instead of a loved one. As much as I love my blog friends and my family that is far away, I can’t hear the sound of their voice, I have to read their words instead. I can’t see their facial expression when they tell a story, I have to try and picture it. I can’t hear their laugh, I can only see their lol. I can’t let them feel my love through a hug, I have to try and display it in words. I CAN do those things with the people in my life who are not on a computer. I can do those things with my kids and my husband and my family members who are right here. I can keep sharing our life with my online friends and seeing their lives in return, but I can seriously limit how much time I spend looking down.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // I would have missed it

If I was looking down…

I would have missed the chance to dance with Kage as I sang to him because he asked me to. I would have missed that overwhelming feeling of joy that surged through me as we spun around the living room and the I would have missed the happiness that was written all over his face. I would have missed the way he threw his arms around me and just held on when I knelt down to his level during a part of the song.

If I was looking down…

I would have the adorable way Jay stretches when he first wakes up in the morning. I would have missed the way he simply rubbed his eyes before he climbed out of bed to take my hand so we could walk to the kitchen table where his breakfast was waiting for him. I would have missed his first smile of the morning. That slow, sleepy smile that lets me know he’s happy I was the first one he saw when he woke up for the day.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // I would have missed it

If I was looking down…

I would have missed the way Kage wrapped his arm around me as I laid down next to him. I would have missed the opportunity to stroke his hair as Jay sat on the other side of me, chatting away. I would have missed cuddling and talking turning into playing the three little pigs with my boys, I would have missed the laughter that filled our room.

If I was looking down…

I probably would have told my husband to hold on when he asked me to come here. I would have missed the way my body fit perfectly next to his as we cuddled. I would have missed those few minute of time with him spent talking. I would have missed those kisses that I love so much. I would have missed feeling love rush through me as his arms came around me and pulled me closer.

It is fun to share our lives with family and friends via social media, but if we spend too much time looking down. Then we are going to be missing out on so much life, love, and memories that are right in front of us.

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Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Dear boys, first thank you for keeping me entertained at my doctors appointment. I thought taking you to said appointment was going to be a nightmare, but y’all surprised me and did so well and even made me laugh. My doctor was happy to finally meet you Jay since he had already seen Kage a couple of times. Also, thank you for stopping your before bed dance session to let me snap a picture of y’all in your angry bird pajamas. I know it might seem crazy now, but one day when y’all get older, you will understand why mommy wanted all of these pictures.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Dear Hubby, we were kid free on Friday night and while we didn’t get to do much. It was nice that we got to go to IHOP at one am when we were craving it. I really couldn’t believe the drunk dude in the parking lot that asked us for money {who was probably going to go back across the street to the bar to keep drinking} or the fact that he was asking other people for money as well. I also found it slightly comical when he was only addressing the men when he approached a couple and how he shut up real fast when you decided to be an asshole to him and stop him mid-sentence. #youknowhowtokeepitreal I also couldn’t believe the conversation I overheard of the couple sitting behind us when he told his girl that, “She was being annoying.” which apparently was why he was acting mad. Either way, the date with you was wonderful. As my friend Kristine likes to say, #keepithot {Sorry Kristine, I’m totally stealing that!} ;)

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Dear Jay, thank you for being so wonderfully you. You surprised me by almost falling asleep on the living room floor after you threw a fit because of what, I don’t even remember. It still made me laugh to think you were going to fall asleep right there. Thank you for being so incredibly sweet. You hadn’t seen your cousin {and best friend} in almost a week and a half and you missed him so much. Well, Friday you were staying the night over at Mimaw’s house with Kage and your cousin so, you woke up bright and early at five thirty {I wasn’t too thrilled about that} and when I finally let you get up for the morning a couple of hours later, you immediately went to your coloring book to color a picture for him. As soon as you saw your cousin you said, “Hey, I have something for you.” You presented him with the picture you colored and his face lit up and he gave you a big hug. #insertmeltedheart Thank you for also keeping me entertained during our first “scary” storm of the season by telling me the story of what was going on with the little action figures you were playing with.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Dear Kage, Thank you for also being so wonderfully you. I gave you and Jay some party hats to play with. They were in a bag from your birthday party back in November and y’all wouldn’t stop asking to play with them so, I finally gave in. You decided to make fun shapes with them and it totally made me smile. Thank you for asking me to take the most random pictures {you ask me quite often}, they are always ridiculous and normally make me laugh. Also Kage, I just want to say how amazed I am that you have inherited the drawing/artist talent from my side of the family. You are only four years old and you are a self taught drawer. You draw pictures from memory of stuff you’ve seen or watched and I love watching you put pencil, crayon or marker to paper because I know I’m always going to be blown away.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Dear self, your everyday mom outfit is ridiculous. Except, in the picture below your wearing slightly big pants and you normally have on leggings, either way, you should probably get a new everyday mom outfit. #justsayin You should also probably hang that damn mirror, that way it will get off of your floor and you can stop telling the boys fifty times a day to get away from it that way they don’t break it.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Dear reading at five thirty in the morning, when Jay woke up on Friday bright and early, I made him lay down and watch two movies because there was no way I was getting up that early during spring break. He surprisingly didn’t argue and I tried to go back to sleep with no success. So, I picked up where I left off on the Matched series I am reading. I must say, I do like the book, I’m not sure if I love it, it’s kind of slow which frustrates me to no end, but I do like the main characters and I do like the story that is being told. I always relish in any quiet time I have to read since reading is so close to my heart.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Dear Sunday afternoon jam session, you made me smile so big. Seeing the boys love for music that Hubby and I share warms my heart. Also, I loved that Hubby was willing to let the boys listen to music using the new head phones that literally had just been delivered. {my boys like to break things} I loved that he let them cuddle up next to him and let the music flow through them all. It’s moments like that, that just simply blow me the hell away. #weareblessedwithadamngoodman

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Dear random things, the double rainbow we saw on Saturday night was AMAZING. The picture just doesn’t even come close to doing it justice. The boldness of the colors stunned me. Normally the rainbows I see are far away, but this one was so close. I felt like I could reach out and touch it if I got just a little closer to it. I was almost tempted to follow it to see where it ended because that’s how close it looked. One of the rainbows was a full arch and so perfect. I wanted to see where it hit the ground and if the colors radiated everywhere on the ground or if it stopped somewhere in the sky. We all appreciated that rainbow for sure. #godspromise I won a giveaway from The Modern Tulip and that bracelet came in such cute packaging and the bracelet itself, WOW. You’ll have to wait for another post to see that. To the Wonka Randoms Candy – thank you for being so delicious.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Silly & sweet boys, a weird date night, a new book series and more

Dear readers, thank you for continuing to read my little blog, for following along on my journey and blessing my heart in ways you couldn’t even imagine. Thank you for following along on my journey through life. Muah!!

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2014 goals

Happy Friday friends! I hope you all had a great week! Yesterday I shared my word for the year & I am so glad so many of you liked it. Not just in the comments, but on IG, FB & twitter as well. I truly can’t wait to see what the year holds with having the word I chose. While I’m not one for setting resolutions, I am one for setting goals. To me, goals are something I can work towards and strive to achieve. Last year, I only had four main goals and I stuck to them pretty well. This time though, I set a few more for myself because I like to push and challenge myself.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // 2014 Goals

Life goals:

Read 100 books. I’m pretty sure I’ve mentioned this once or twice on my blog ;), but just in case I’ll mention it again. I absolutely love to read and I didn’t read as much as I would have liked last year so, I’m making up for it this year. I’ve already bought several books to get me started.

Publish a book or two. If you have been around this blog for awhile than this doesn’t come as a surprise to you, but if you are new, this is my all time dream and I came very close last year. I will make it happen this year.

Learn to put my temper in check and not yell as much.

Once a month have a get together with my mom and sister. Our lives are busy as it is and we try to get the kids together to play every couple of weeks, I think it would be nice to go grab lunch, go get pedicures together or go shopping once a month.

Spend more time with the boys. I always make time for them, but I want to be more intentional about it. More games, more playtime, more adventures. Time goes so fast and I want to make as many memories as possible with them.

Date night twice a month. We used to have date night weekly, but then life got busy and it went to twice a month, then once a month and sometimes over a month. I am so passionate about keeping the spark alive in a marriage that I want us to have date night twice a month, every month. That doesn’t mean we always have to go out for date night, it can be at home, I just want it to happen.

Organize our home and declutter our life. 

Take a couple of vacations. Yes, this is a goal because it requires saving and planning.

Blog goals:

I want to post original content five times a week. It is hard to produce good, quality content, but I’m going to try my best.

Connect better with other bloggers. There was a time I was good at this. I read blogs, I commented and I interacted on twitter alot. I somehow fell off of this and I want to get back on it. I want to set aside time each week to do just that. 

Build the Live.Laugh.L0ve. Community. That my readers is YOU. I want to connect with you, chat with you and help when I can. I even started a Live.Laugh.L0ve. Blogging community on my facebook that is solely for my blog readers. If you have been a reader, but don’t comment, now is the time to start because that is the only way I really know you are truly reading my blog. If you have and do and want to join the group leave your fb email in the comments below or email it to me. (This is how I’m able to invite you) cassielivelaughl0ve@gmail.com

Attend a few blog conferences and/or events. I already bought my ticket to Texas women bloggers fashion show and I am so excited to go. I also really want to fly to California for Elevate. I haven’t decided on any others just yet.

I would love for you to share one or two of your goals with me!
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Life lately, giveaways, DIYs & accepting sponsors

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Life lately, giveaways, DIYs & accepting sponsors

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Life lately, giveaways, DIYs & accepting sponsors

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Life lately, giveaways, DIYs & accepting sponsors

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Life lately, giveaways, DIYs & accepting sponsors

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Life lately, giveaways, DIYs & accepting sponsors

Pants – Kohl’s
Hoodie – Academy
Pajama set – Academy

Happy Monday y’all. Here is to the start of a new week, thanksgiving break week to be exact! =D This is what our life looks like lately. I just wanted to share a few things real quick because I have some super fun posts coming to ya this week so today I’m keeping it light.

I am giving away a $10 Starbucks gift card & 3 months of ad space. If you haven’t entered yet, you can do that here. I would love for y’all to check out my DIY Joy sign that I posted yesterday. You won’t believe what it is made out of! Last thing, I am accepting sponsors for December. I have so many awesome posts planned for the month of December that I think is going to draw some more traffic to my blog and I would love to have you on my side bar. You can view stats and ad sizes & prices here. Use code merry christmas to get 30% off any ad spot.

Random Thoughts

– First, I just want to take a minute and thank all of you SO much for the birthday wishes. Y’all just blew me away between blog comments, instagram comments, facebook comments & tweets. This community sure knows how to make a girl feel special so, thank you so very much. Also, if you haven’t entered to win a $10 starbucks gift card and 3 months of featured ad space yet, you should probably do that. ;)

– Yesterday my birthday wound up being better than I thought it was going to be. I didn’t have anything planned. Jay had school and Hubby had to work so, I just planned for a low-key day and that’s what I got, but in a good way. I won $20 on a scratch off. I shared the ice cream Hubby bought me with Jay and Kage.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Random Thoughts

– Hearing the boys randomly tell me happy birthday throughout the day melted my heart. My day was filled with lots of laughter, crafting with my boys, and taking pictures of the boys being goofy. I didn’t get to sleep in, but I did take a nap and I did have to do things around the house, but they were minor. Overall, it was a sweet and pretty damn good birthday.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Random Thoughts

– I’ve been watching Hart of Dixie on Netflix. I just finished season one and I am now on season two and I am so completely hooked it’s ridiculous.

– I was looking through pictures I have taken recently and I realized I seriously love sunsets.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Random Thoughts

– I am making an advent/countdown calender this year for the first time and it is turning out SO cute, I can’t wait to share it with y’all.

– I can’t believe next week is Thanksgiving and I also can’t believe my youngest will be four next week too. I’m not even going to say it. Screw it, I’m going to say it. Time goes too fast dammit!

– I am really glad today is Friday. I am looking forward to the weekend because I’m going to see Catching Fire and when Jay gets out of school today, it will be the start to Thanksgiving break and I am thrilled.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Random Thoughts

– Last but not least, I love this picture I snapped of Kage. Look at those little feet!

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Random Thoughts

Golden Honey

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Golden Honey

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Golden Honey

Golden honey. That’s all that comes to mind when I look at the lighting in these pictures I took recently. My little sister and I took our boys to the park and I remembered how excited I was to try out my camera during the “golden hour.” The golden hour didn’t let me down, but I much prefer to think of it as golden honey. The way that gold light slipped through the trees and caught the leaves in the sweet, gorgeous color between orange, yellow and red. I remember how I kept stopping to just stare at the way the light looked through the trees. How that golden honey color slanted onto the ground or how it bounced off the building.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Golden Honey

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Golden Honey

Golden honey doesn’t just describe the light, but the amazing shine that was coming off of our boys. The way that light hit them as they ran, it looked as if they were running right through that golden light, it bounced off of them and made them shine. Their sweet laughter filled the air as the ran, climbed, slid and raced. I’ve been trying to say yes more often than no. I was hurting pretty bad this day, but the weather was perfect for November and I just couldn’t say no. I couldn’t deny them playing in that golden light. I couldn’t deny them the laughter they wanted to let escape.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Golden Honey

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Golden Honey

Life is already so busy. It already goes so fast. Especially with Jay in school now, time just seems to keep flying on by. Soaking in every moment with them is important to me. Getting wrapped up in that sweetness that only the carefree laughter of a child can create, is important. Taking the time to watch their own light shine, is important to me.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Golden Honey

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Golden Honey

As time continues to go by, we have to learn to appreciate that golden beauty and to wrap ourselves up in that sweet honey of life.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Golden Honey

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Golden Honey

Coffee Date

Happy Friday friends. I am SO ready for the weekend. I would love to meet for coffee today. Life has been a little on the busy & chaotic side and a coffee date with a friend sounds so good right about now. I would tell you that I would probably be wearing one of the many pairs of colorful, super soft, warm socks I bought. We could bundle up and take our hot cup of coffee out back to chat and watch the sunrise. That’s one thing I like about getting up early during the week is that I’m actually up on time to see it and it constantly takes my breath away.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Coffee Date

If we were meeting for coffee.. I would tell you about the last couple of weeks. I would tell you about how there are just some days my back pain is unbearable and I literally get nothing done and then there are other days that it’s okay and I try to get the kids outdoors and I try to get caught up on things around the house. I would tell you that I am so thankful for the friends and family who check up on me and just listen to me talk. I would tell you in eleven days, I’ll be going in for my injections and I can’t wait.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Coffee Date

If we were meeting for coffee.. I would tell you how blessed I am to have two incredibly sweet and helpful boys. They may not always get along {what siblings do} and they may not always listen, but when I sit back and look at the days that have past, they are some pretty damn good kids. I would tell you that have become quite the little helpers and most days I don’t have to repeat myself more than once when I ask them to do something. I would tell you Jay is doing so well in school. We couldn’t be more proud of him. I look at Jay with wonder sometimes, how can this active, smart, sweet, understanding little boy be all mine? I am so thankful he is. I would tell you that Kage is slowly coming out of his terrible threes & that although he is almost four, he doesn’t pass up a chance to still cuddle with me. He loves to color and as I watch him, I see a little form of passion inside of him when he does and I can’t help but wonder if there is a little artists inside of him.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Coffee Date

If we were meeting for coffee.. I would tell you that the next two weeks are going to be busy, but in a good way. My 25th birthday is next Friday and I plan on having the time of my life celebrating. Kage’s birthday is in two weeks and I can’t wait to have a birthday party for him. I am not one of those people who freaks out and stresses about parties. I enjoy making decorations, putting things together, getting everything setup and then just going with it. It’s his day and I refuse to ever let myself be stressed when their is a life to celebrate. I would tell you that I am looking forward to Thanksgiving too. I love Turkey and everything that comes with Thanksgiving. #bringonthegrub

If we were meeting for coffee.. I would tell you I love my new camera and I am making plans and getting things lined up to start my biz. I would also tell you that I am almost done typing up all the edits on my book and that my heart thuds quite loudly when I think about it. I would tell you that working towards your dreams can be wonderful, hard, amazing and a wee bit scary, but it is oh so worth it. Don’t ever let anyone tell you that you can’t do what you dream of doing and for that matter, don’t let self doubt tell you that you can’t either.

If we were meeting for coffee.. I would ask, how are you? How is life going? How is your family? Are you looking forward to some delicious Thanksgiving food? Are there any dreams you are working towards? I would tell you to talk away because, I’m listening.

I’m linking up with Rags to Stitches for Coffee.

Piercings, washing dishes in a bathtub & so much sweetness

I haven’t done a photo dump in awhile. I have had pictures on my phone that I have wanted to share on here, that I have shared on Instagram. I had posts planned for the past four days and yet, I wound up unexpectedly unplugging for four days and it was wonderful. I played with my kids more. I worked on my book. I spent a lot of time with family. I lived without worrying about twitter, blogging, facebook, etc. It was nice, but I’m glad to be back. However, I think I’m going to make it a point at least every other weekend – to unplug on purpose and simply live life. Because life is best, when it is lived.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Piercings, washing dishes in a bathtub & so much sweetness

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Piercings, washing dishes in a bathtub & so much sweetness

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Piercings, washing dishes in a bathtub & so much sweetness

The last week of October was red ribbon week at Jay’s school and they had different themes for each day. Pajama day, Career day, sunglasses day. He rocked them all so perfectly don’t ya think? ;)

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Piercings, washing dishes in a bathtub & so much sweetness

My cousin‘s daughters birthday party was a Halloween themed birthday party. My uncle was a scarecrow. The picture is self explanatory I think. Lol.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Piercings, washing dishes in a bathtub & so much sweetness

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Piercings, washing dishes in a bathtub & so much sweetness

My sweet, sweet Kage. He makes my heart nearly burst.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Piercings, washing dishes in a bathtub & so much sweetness

A little behind the scenes photo shoot I did for this post and this post.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Piercings, washing dishes in a bathtub & so much sweetness

This was from Halloween. I love that man so much.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Piercings, washing dishes in a bathtub & so much sweetness

My kitchen sink decided to back up into my dishwasher so, after a few days of staring at the ridiculous stack of dishes in the sink, I decided to turn on some country music, take the dishes into the bathtub and wash them while listening to my boys giggle.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Piercings, washing dishes in a bathtub & so much sweetness

Writing notes to send to friends is one of my favorite things ever.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Piercings, washing dishes in a bathtub & so much sweetness

Happy early birthday to me! It’s time I start living out one of my dreams. I am bursting at the seems with excitement!!

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Piercings, washing dishes in a bathtub & so much sweetness

I got my nose pierced over the weekend.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Piercings, washing dishes in a bathtub & so much sweetness

Two heads are always better than one.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Piercings, washing dishes in a bathtub & so much sweetness

I absolutely love them to pieces and I love the bond they have!

What have you been up to?! I feel out of the loop after being disconnected for four days!

Time is already going so fast

Being an aspiring published author, I tend to be a people watcher. I notice the way people stand, how they fidget, how they hold themselves, how they move, etc. Over the years I’ve noticed that so many people seem to be in a big rush and so many people want instant gratification. I’ve noticed people tend to “not have time” more than they “have time.” Oh, I haven’t read in awhile, I just don’t have time for it. I used to love to craft, but I just can’t fit it in. I’ve heard that along with SO much more of, “Oh I used to or I haven’t” because, they just don’t have time. What happened to spending hours reading a book from cover to cover because, you just couldn’t put it down? What happened to actually doing those crafts you want to do, simply because, you wanted to do them?

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Time is already going so fast

I get it. I understand days aren’t long enough and time seems to go so fast, but that’s the thing. Time is already going so fast, so why are we in such a rush to make it go faster. Why do we bounce from one thing to another, attempting to cram everything into one day and then longing for the things we once enjoyed doing? I just think people need to slow down, people need to enjoy life a little more and doing the things they love a little more. I don’t care how busy my day is or how much stuff I have to get done, if my boys want my attention, they have it. If at the end of day my to-do list is still not done, but I’m craving to read or craft or blog, I do it.

All we have is now. All we are guaranteed is this moment. Time is flying by so fast that before you know it, ten years is going to go by, your kids are going to be older and so are you and all those memories you wish you stopped and made, all those things you had wanted to do, are now regrets because, you just didn’t have the time. I don’t remember where I heard this, but it stuck with me, “You can always make time for the things you love” & it’s true. I’m willing to bet you make time for your kids and your spouse, you love them, so of course you do. If you love working, writing, blogging, crafting, decorating your home, reading, whatever – you learn to make time for it.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Time is already going so fast

Don’t let this precious time we have, go by so fast that you don’t get to make those memories or do those things you love to do. Live in the now. Stop worrying about tomorrow, for tomorrow has enough worry of it’s own. {Matthew 6:34} Enjoy every moment. Do everything that you love.

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Sometimes you just have to cry

I swear one day I’m going to get back to my regular happy posts. I feel like I have been writing a lot of sad ones lately. Maybe it’s because I’m sad or maybe that’s what I’m feeling at the end of the day when I sit down to write. Either way, this is my blog, my real life and I write how I feel. I write because I want to remember and my life is not always rainbows and butterflies. This 31 day challenge has helped me realize that so far and has helped me realize that I don’t have to share the happy all the time. While I enjoy writing about all the good, happy and wonderful moments in my life. I also feel sadness, angry and bitchiness and I think those deserve a spot here too because, it’s apart of me, it’s apart of being human.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Sometimes you just have to cry

Monday went from a good day to a bad one. I truly woke up believing that it was going to be a much better day. I was so beyond wrong it wasn’t even funny. Today was hell. Today was rough. Today was one of those days that I asked God a lot of questions. It’s one of those days where around every corner there is another thing trying to knock me down. Today was one of those days where I tried my best to get out of the house, help at the school, visit with my mom, even if it was only for an hour. I tried to make it better and it just wasn’t. I had to cancel my doctor appointment today because, I just can’t afford the injection right now for my back. So, I cried. That means I’m in pain longer. That means I’m not giving my 100% to everything I do because, I just can’t. So, I cried some more.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Sometimes you just have to cry

Kage acted like a complete brat again after we left the school this afternoon when I was up there helping with some things. Again, he caused my back to hurt worse from his trying to pull away from me and me having to pick him up. So, I cried again. The boys woke up at five o’ clock this morning, by the time we got Jay from school. They were whiny and crying and just plain blah. I let them take an hour nap. When I woke them up more crying, actually lots more crying. There were other things throughout the day that just kept adding to everything that had already happened, so what did I do, I cried some more.

The thing is. No matter what we do. No matter how hard we try and make it better. No matter how hard we try to keep our shit together. We are going to have days where nothing is going our way and we are going to feel defeated, we are going to fall. We are going to need to cry. Therefore, I cried. I purged it. I got it out of my system because I needed to. I needed to let those tears roll silently down my cheeks. I needed to silently scream. I needed to just get that bad day out of my system.

Live.Laugh.L0ve. // Sometimes you just have to cry

Once I did, the day didn’t miraculously get better, but I felt better. While I was still a little down, I was a lot more up than I was and instead of brooding some more, I wrote. I wasn’t going to stay down and I sure in the hell wasn’t going to stay defeated.

{I know this song talks about her moving on from a guy, but I love it because the lyrics are so true about what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, etc.}
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